Mad Like Alyce

Mental Health Around the Holidays

With Christmas just two sleeps away, I enjoyed sleeping in, drinking waaayyyy to much coffee, standing in line forever at the grocery store (thank god for Audible), and cleaning the apartment… specifically my desk. I am a constant note taker, saving little scraps of paper with scribbled ideas to come back to later. You guys, if I had made half of the makeup looks I’ve had ideas for… but I digress.

What really struck me was finding a few scribbled poems from this time last year when I was really starting to struggle with my PTSD again. I’m not sure when this lesson is going to sink in, but there is no such thing as “getting there” or “arriving” at this elusive dream called “better.” Its all a process of adjusting, and continuing to fight to be our best selves no matter what.

Mental Health Around the Holidays

The holidays are difficult for so many people, regardless if they have mental illness to contend with or not. With money struggles, travel, family, weather, and possible SADD issues, it is a variable cocktail of emotions and stressors, but add mental struggles on top, and it can make things…. lets go with interesting. A year seems like a long time, but in truth it flies by so quickly. It feels a little crazy to me that just a year ago, I wrote this:

My mind is a record,

I keep it spinning to keep the nightmares at bay.

The smallest bump to my barely stable world causes skips…

jumping from song to song in a desperate attempt

to keep the music playing.

Though I struggled, I was at least aware that I needed to make changes, even if I didn’t know just how far that stability had slipped. Perhaps my subconscious knew, now that I read this poem, I wonder.

Keeping things positive

I share this poem, not to be negative, but instead to show that we all have our dark holidays. Sometimes we put so much pressure on ourselves to have a magical holiday but the truth is, there is so much of that out of our control. If you are not feeling so hot this holiday season, just know you are not alone, and it doesn’t mean it will feel this way forever. Heres to hoping your holidays are wonderful, and sending positivity your way!

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Hi! I'm Alyce.
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  • Happy Birthday Harry, it's time to party like it's 1999! In 99, I was a 10 year old reading the first two Harry Potter books, and waiting for the third (and my favorite) Prizoner of Azkaban to be released in the fall. I eagerly awaited my 11th birthday, and convinced myself when I didn't get my owl that US wizard schools must wait until you are 12. #everydayimmugglin.
Which book is your favorite? And which house are you in? Where my Gryffindor's at?!?!? #harrypotter #potterhead #gryffindor #hogwarts #stillwaitingformyowl
  • Happy Birthday to J.K. Rowling and Harry Potter! Thank you for showing me that for a writer, magic truly exists. 
#harrypotter #hogwarts #potterhead #jkrowling #happybirthday
  • "Jumpsuit jumpsuit, cover me."
Im mildly obsessed with the new TOP single, and actually have a cosplay in the works based off of the music video. Question to you guys, would you be interested in seeing progress pics for some of my work? I feel like I don't focus on one thing long enough, and by the time it hits the blog, its been ages! Let me know in the comments!
#twentyonepilots #TOP #skeletonclique #losingmyfreakingmind #isitoctoberyet #jumpsuit #trench
  • "Time to wake up." I have probably listened to the new TOP song over 100 (200? 100? Who's counting?) times by now. October 5 cannot get here fast enough! I wanted to pull something fast and simple together. #twentyonepilots #TOP #skeletonclique #losingmyfreakingmind #isitoctoberyet #jumpsuit #trench

The whole look was done with #mehron body paint. This wig also has me feeling my emo high school days... wig from Rockstar Wigs, but i'm not sure exactly which style it is.
  • "We've been here the whole time. You were asleep." No better way to jump back in to some makeup looks than being inspired by one of my all time favorite bands. Who else has "Jumpsuit" on repeat? 
#twentyonepilots #TOP #skeletonclique #losingmyfreakingmind #isitoctoberyet #jumpsuit #trench
  • "Sometimes, you just want things to stay the way they are forever. But you can’t. And they won’t." - Girl in Space

Because i'm trying this thing where I post each look in 3's to keep my Insta page even, and I seriously can't express how hauntingly gorgeous the intros are for each Girl in Space episode. I'm re-listening to the episodes now, and I so excited for 109 since I have NO CLUE what is going to happen! Also, after a few weeks without looking at them, this is one of my favorite pictures, and I can't believe I didn't post it first!
  • "Yeah, I’m glad I’m back, too." Episode 108 of the @girlinspacepodcast  left me with SO MANY QUESTIONS!!! Is Kai alive? Where the heck is Thor? Who is the "lion's paw?" But the biggest unknown is just how important the dwarf star "Ra" is likely to become in the plot of 109... and is why Ra is included in my makeup! The warm glowing orb on my eye is in reference to my suspicions that Ra will soon become a much more relevant part of the Girl in Space plot very soon. #girlinspace #findme #nomurdering #savekillbot #prayforkai
  • Galaxy in action! Quick peek at the movement of the makeup before I put on my wig, which covered a lot of the detail. Gotta love that "sunshine" glare on the shiny black surface! I bought a finishing powder this week to hopefully counteract this in the future. Or just back away from the light.... :P
  • Disappearing into the music...
I was really digging my latest playlist when I started my galaxy makeup last weekend, so I started blacking out everything besides my face to procrastinate taking off my headphones. I took this photo halfway through to see how well I would blend into my background, and kind of liked how this "progress" shot turned out. Funny thing was, this was the last pic where I had a true infinite background, my camera (phone) couldn't quite hang once I was fully blacked out. Time to consider a real camera?

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