Mad Like Alyce

Hey guys! Quick warning, if you are squeamish, the beginning of this video is probably not for you.

First of all, if you have been following me for awhile, you might be wondering why it is already October 5th and I haven’t yet announced a theme for 31 Days of Halloween! That is because I had decided not to do it! There are a few reasons why…

Shoulder Surgery

This look is inspired by my actual upcoming shoulder surgery. After a year of expensive diagnostic tests, long periods of wait between appointments, a doctor who told me my pain was likely caused by my PTSD, and 6 months worth of physical therapy… I finally went to the third doctor, who immediately noticed they had done the wrong type of MRI almost 9 months prior. Just a week later, and I found out that it had been a tear the entire time.

All of the pain, frustration, and humiliation of having a doctor take one look at my medical history and assume he had this “hysterical” woman with PTSD figured out. After ordering additional and expensive medical tests (instead of referring me to an orthopedic specialist, which I did myself eventually) he told me point blank I should see a psychiatrist. Boy was he surprised when he found out he had ordered the wrong MRI from the get go and completely missed my sports injury, which would have saved me months of pain and at this point, thousands of dollars. Im only a little bitter…  I promise! I’m honestly just happy to be getting it over with!

Be your own advocate

This is where I want to re-iterate a stance I have had about chronic pain that I have always trumpeted. YOU are the biggest advocate of YOUR health you will ever have. YOU know what is going on in your body. Trust this. If you know something is wrong, follow it. Get a second opinion, get a third opinion. Don’t let a doctor’s bias from an existing condition blind him to the truth about what is going on with YOUR body. Find someone willing to listen. To search. To treat you. And to trust that you know your body. I go on about this a little more at the end of the video, so if you are not a fan of the gore, skip to 3:21 to see my health advocacy PSA of sorts.

Find Your Mental Balance

So, don’t get me wrong… I LOVE HALLOWEEN!!! And doing a ton of DIY’s, baked goods, and costumes is one of my favorite ways to pass my time. But after injuring myself last September (re-same shoulder injury) and having already started a bit of a downward spiral with my PTSD that had snuck up on my like I hadn’t believed it could. I didn’t even realize I had been struggling so badly until I was almost buried by it, and I am just now starting to get back on top of things. With the upcoming surgery plus all of the general anxiety of life and the pressure of comparison in the online space… I just know it isn’t the best use of my energy. Every year, as proud as I am of my work, and as much fun as I was having… Im completely exhausted when Halloween rolls around. This year, I’m going to try to get up what I can one handed, and actually enjoy Halloween resting, sleeping, wearing nothing but my new Halloween leggings, and watching scary movies.

Plus… I have kind of let my makeup and costume obsession spill into all other months of the year.

Without further ado…

Special Effects Surgical Stitches

That intro scene is totes fake btw. But it was gruesome and it made me happy 😛

Now, this ended up looking a lot like the prosthetics you can buy at the store, but it does have more easily hidden edges. I just wish I had 1) gotten better light on the stitches and 2) done more irritation using a stippling sponge.

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Hello!

Hi! I'm Alyce.
Welcome to my journey towards living a happier and healthier life while living with PTSD and chronic pain... and never letting it keep me from my passion for Halloween, cooking, and way too many DIY projects... all at the same time!

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  • The top 9 for madlikealyce! It has been a fantastic year, trying out all kinds of new things and really expanding on my love for makeup and cosplay. Thank you to all of my AMAZING FRIENDS AND FOLLOWERS who have been with me on this journey. I can wait until my shoulder has healed enough to get back to it, I have a whole LIST of things I am dying to try! In the meantime, I’m at least back to writing on the blog, so make sure to check me out there, Link in bio. ❤️ you all!
  • Sick day snuggles. But at least it’s my first day out of the sling! #countdownisover #pitbullsofinstagram #pitbull #drinkallthetea
  • My new favorite IG account... u need to scroll through these posts! #Repost @iamtheswimreaper (@get_repost)
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Lol #justbeingbasic
  • Bahahahaha too funny not to share! #followyourdreams #freddykrueger
  • When I first saw @miss_stryx post her challenge, it really shook me. What AM I most afraid of? My first thought... was everything. Which made me realize that honestly, my biggest fear is losing control of my PTSD. I was diagnosed with PTSD 9 years ago, but it  took a good few years before I really understood what that even meant and how it impacted how I felt each day. It took even more years of counseling and amazing support from my friends and family before I was able to really get control of it. I'm happy to say that I'm now at a place where I live with PTSD but it doesn't control me. That being said, I'm always terrified of what might happen if it would spiral away from me again.
My second greatest fear is something that has plagued me from my childhood, but became an outright phobia and trigger once I developed PTSD. That is a fear of needles.  Shots, giving blood, and especially IVs.  Then it hit me... what is the perfect combination of both of these  fears? A lobotomy. A very controversial treatment used in the past on people with mental illness, involving a huge needle. 
From that terrifying vision came an awesome collaboration with some really great friends, and filmed and edited by the INSANELY talented @jibclimmer to complete my first ever horror short film. I'm so thankful to have so many talented and wonderful people that were willing and excited about making this vision a reality. I hope this isn't too dark for you guys, but I totally understand if it is! The idea actually terrified me and I put myself in the very center of it! Ultimately, filming this was actually not scary at all, as I have such incredible friends, and I was in a safe space the entire time. This particular version of the film is not the final version, since we were limited to 60 seconds on Instagram. Very soon we hope to have the entire short film up and posted and I will make sure to let you all know when that is live on YouTube! It is with great pleasure that I present to you my entry for round 1 of the #StrykingFEAR contest.
  • What would you do if you foresaw the telling of your own death? Here are some stills of my round 2 entry for the #StrykingFEAR contest. To see  the backstory on my Undead fortune-teller,  check out my last post for a quick short film introduction. The 2 part tutorial video should hopefully be up on the blog shortly!
  • For round 2 of the #StrykingFEAR contest, the character I was initially least excited about was the fortune teller. Why? Because fortune tellers are usually great beauty makeups. While I love doing horror looks, I really can't say I'm great shakes at beauty makeup. And then it hit me... what a great opportunity to do something outside my comfort zone AND something familiar with a two part makeup? I borrowed a crystal ball from a friend, ordered tarot cards, and learned a little bit on how to do a reading and pulled together an ending to this fortune teller's story… or should I say beginning?
  • When your sling gives you a full blown chronic pain flareup. Laying on the floor with my legs up to help take pressure off my lower back, and mystic seems pretty concerned. Good thing I have episode three of the @girlinspacepodcast to listen to!If you haven't started listening to this audio drama, you need to check it out ASAP! #chronicpain #chronicfatigue #lifeinasling #girlinspace #findme
  • Good things happen when you leave the apartment for the first time in a week! These must've gotten dropped off when I was taking a nap, I opened my front door to find this gorgeous Halloween bouquet on my doormat from @bkbecker! I just can't get over those adorable bats!!! #ihavethebestfriends #halloween

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