Mad Like Alyce

For those of you who have wondered what the heck this “Farrell’s” thing I have kept mentioning is… I started doing Farrell’s Xtreme Bodyshaping. The gist is that it is an intense kickboxing class that is 45 minutes per day, 6 days a week, for 10 weeks. 3 days a week is cardio/kickboxing and the other 3 days are resistance band training. Its considered to be a pretty intense workout around town, and I waffled with the idea of doing it for 2 years… but i’m actually really glad I didn’t do it until now.

My journey from self loathing to loving fitness

When I first looked into it 2 years ago, I was frustrated with my weight, and had this “OMG I cannot take another summer feeling like crap in everything” perspective. I’m sure it varies by person, but for me… I actually don’t really like summer. I get sweaty, have to wear spandex under dresses to prevent chub rub (this is more my body shape than weight, however. I could lose a ton of weight and still have this). I don’t like the way I look in shorts, and layers are darn near impossible to pull off without amping up the sweat factor, and I have a really difficult time finding swimsuits that make me feel good. Ultimately, it was the cost that prevented me from joining.

A year later, just after I had my moment of motivation last year in January, I started thinking a bit differently about my health. It wasn’t as much that I wanted to lose weight, but that I just wanted to feel better about myself and I can honestly say that a clear majority of this feeling was more health related than body image. I was shocked when I couldn’t climb to the top of the climbing wall on a company trip. I knew I was certainly out of shape, but something about feeling my muscles fail before my mind gave up… I knew it was time to make a change. I had been focusing so much on improving my mental health, and I really wanted to begin bringing a physical health focus back to the game. I spent about 3 months hitting it hard and thought about taking the plunge for Farrell’s for their summer session… and then hurt myself. After waffling around with taping and chiropractic, I finally went into the doctor who confirmed a high ankle sprain (a separation of the long bones in the leg) and was booted for 6 weeks… in the muggy July heat.

Finally, in September, I returned from a trip out to my Grandma’s in Reno, Nevada to weight myself in at the highest weight I had seen in 4 years… it I would be lying if I said it wasn’t a punch in the gut. But I also wasn’t that surprised. I was so unhappy with how I felt, even though I was far more confident in my body and who I am. I just wanted more for myself. I could do better. I wanted better for myself. I deserve it.

No more excuses

After my ankle injury, I kept making excuses of why I couldn’t do this or that. Why I couldn’t sign up for Farrell’s just now. I kept waiting for the right time. And then I realized I was kidding myself. The time was never going to be perfect, and I didn’t have to be perfect at it (key point there!). The truth of it all is that I missed exercise, but I kept trying to think of ways to “trick” myself into workouts. I get bored easy… self motivation and self control are not really my strong suits. Classes that I can show up to and be led through are perfect for me. I can show up and let my mind shut down, just let myself go through the class and disconnect from everything going on in my  head… and ultimately, what is better than 6 days of intense classes each week?

Falling for Fitness

The honest truth to this is that I really do love exercise, but after developing chronic pain, it became a love/hate relationship. Doing too much (without even realizing it at the time) could put me into a flare-up spiral, but there is nothing better to combat the daily pain than feeling the endorphins from a good workout. From feeling the muscles in your body. From actually connecting to the body that you so often feel has betrayed you. I love feeling sore, as long as I know there is a real cause for that soreness… something I earned.

Even more than that, I miss being proud of my physical accomplishments, and I even missed the thrill from those few short months last year when I started running more than I thought I ever could. I wanted to push past barriers… and I am so excited to tell you how Farrell’s was the perfect springboard for me to do this.

P.S. So I have actually finished my first 10 weeks of Farrell’s, and am now continuing on as a FIT (Farrell’s Infinite Transformation) member! Stay tuned for my 10 week results!

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Hi! I'm Alyce.
Welcome to my journey towards living a happier and healthier life while living with PTSD and chronic pain... and never letting it keep me from my passion for Halloween, cooking, and way too many DIY projects... all at the same time!

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  • Find me... This galaxy makeup is inspired by my FAVORITE audio novella,@girlinspacepodcast, though I may be a bit biased. If you haven't yet started listening, you are in for a treat! Enter the world of the character "X" aboard the Cavatica, as she monitors the radiation from the Red Dawrf Star, Ra. Alone.

Season one is still in progress, so there is plenty of time to join the fun! #girlinspace #findme #nomurdering

This look was completed using @mehronmakeup paradise paints from the standard, pastels, and brilliant pallets. Honestly, this is the most color intensive look I have done so far, I had cosmetic wedges everywhere! I pulled it together with a @rockstarwigs long curly in Very Berry.
  • Finally, the last in my “sketched” look (for now). Thieve last few weeks have been absolutely insane, and im still processing. I’m going to have to set aside some time for another look this week, there is something so tranquil about turning yourself into a blank canvas in the most literal sense.
  • Theres nothing quite like painting yourself completely white to make you realize how yellow your teeth are getting. Time to cut back on the coffee! JK, that might actually kill me. #tissuetestfail #needsomewhitestrips #cresttotherescue #notanad #butyoucanpaymeanyway?
  • I sometimes can take well over 200 photos of various looks, just to make sure I get the right one... i don't pretend to be a photographer! Even with so many photos, I will often only post maybe 3-4, which makes me a little sad since I spend so much time on some of these! So here are a few more of my "Migraine" Twenty One Pilots inspired look. I managed to get quite a few shots of this look before adding the tears for the completed migraine look, and I really do love how it looks without any color.
  • "I'm just being dramatic
In fact
I'm only at it again
As an addict with a pen
Who's addicted to the wind
As it blows me back and forth
Mindless, spineless, and pretend
Of course I'll be here again
See you tomorrow
But it's the end of today"
- "Addict with a Pen," Twenty One Pilots
This song is hands down my absolute favorite. I can't decide if it is the lyrics alone, or haunting piano. It was this song that inspired my take on the cover art for their self titled album.
  • "I-I-I I've got a migraine
And my pain will range from up, down, and sideways."
- Twenty One Pilots
Something about the lyrics captures me on so many levels. From the literal chronic pain interpretation, to the deeper meaning of living with mental illness.... this idea hit me as such a powerful vision.
This look was created using @mehronmakeup  water activated paints for the white base and grey and black "sketching". Tears were created by adding food coloring to liquid latex. Wig is the the Long Curly in Silver from @ardawigs.
  • "Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat
Shadows will scream that I'm alone"
-Migraine, Twenty One Pilots

This looks is one I have had planned for quite some time now, and I finally sat down and completed it last night! he inspiration is from the cover artwork for Twenty One Pilots' self titled album (I know these lyrics are not on this album) but my absolute favorite TOP song is, "Addict with a Pen." What is your favorite TOP song?

This look was created using @mehronmakeup  water activated paints for the white base and grey and black "sketching". Tears were created by adding food coloring to liquid latex. The idea for using the latex is from Glam and Gore's "Death Stranding" makeup tutorial, so go and see how Mykie did it! 
As a quick safety note, be VERY careful working this close to your eyes, and make sure to apply vaseline to your lashes to prevent the latex from sticking. Also note, food dyes can temporarily discolor skin, so don't try this before an important event ;)
  • I should be in bed, but instead I'm fighting sleep and fooling around on Photoshop. This is a mirrored version to complete a full face. I have my makeup out and ready for a new look, but have nothing left in the tank today, so here's my last Gwen Dylan... for now ;)
Also, I forget how asymmetrical our faces can be until you flip a photo, or in this case, mirror it. Even just flipping it looked so strange to me!
  • I’m having waaaayyyy to much fun with this one, and it’s just the makeup! I think I might have to start this cosplay this weekend... what’s a good material to use to make a fake shovel blade? I’m a nube when it comes to fabrication, so any and all advice is welcome!

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