Mad Like Alyce

The breadcrumb trail of credits

Recently, I pulled my college transcript for various applications and it was a bit of a heartbreaking trip down memory lane. I had to figure out my Major GPA (why don’t they just put it on there?!?!?) which required me to go through each semester, identify classes from my core classes, and calculate the GPA. In doing this, I was taking a close look at all of the classes I had been enrolled in, and while it was certainly nostalgic… it ultimately made me sad for the person I was at that time. For the girl struggling with things that were bigger than her. I’m proud of what I overcame, but as I started reviewing that freshman year… my heart ached for what that girl had yet to face.

See, I didn’t have the typical college experience. For the first two years or so I was your typical student, give or take, but by the end of my freshman year there was definitely something wrong…. I just couldn’t put my finger on it at the time. Looking back now, I see that I was starting to experience symptoms of my PTSD, manifesting as extreme anxiety. But with no frame of reference for what was happening, I just kept pushing forward.

Reliving those courses… and life lessons

It suddenly hit me when I saw my Summer class in 2009. I was nearly bowled over with the memories of living in a tent in Sturgis while working at the Sturgis Motorcycle Rally and riding around on my little Yamaha, studying with coffee at McDonalds and then going to the local library to take online quizzes before working from Noon to Midnight every day. It was the last normal class I had for nearly 2 years. I was also filled with a sense resembling dread as I continued on to the remaining semesters.

I recall that next semester when my health, mental stability, and life seemed to fall apart. A teacher I was close with recommended that I drop out of school until I managed to get everything figured out… and I have to admit that this recommendation nearly destroyed me at the time. When my self worth and confidence was at an all time low and I was terrified that I was losing control of my mind, becoming a college dropout was the last thing I wanted to do. So I toughed it out. I registered on campus for disability, which allowed me to get a handicap parking pass and certain attendance allowances in my classes, which saved my butt many times in the next year.

She was probably right

Reviewing it years later, as heartbreaking as it is to admit, I can now see why she recommended it. I watched my grades go from A’s and B’s to a solid set of C’s for nearly two years. So, perhaps she was right. But at that time, I felt like the only thing I had left was my pride.

Even with that dip in my college life, I managed to pull things together. My grades, especially in my final year, went back to normal. I had a great job at the time. I was getting off of my meds, I went through rehab, and I escaped from my abusive ex, all while finishing my degree. So perhaps I don’t have a great GPA, or wild and crazy stories from my days at state. Perhaps I only have one close friend from college. But I couldn’t be more proud of who I am today, and I wouldn’t change who I’ve become.

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Hi! I'm Alyce.
Welcome to my journey towards living a happier and healthier life while living with PTSD and chronic pain... and never letting it keep me from my passion for Halloween, cooking, and way too many DIY projects... all at the same time!

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  • Hey Guys! I've been quiet on Insta so far this October, but its because IM SO BUSY and i'm pretty much in Halloween Heaven. Between finishing my first commissioned costume (its super simple, but I completed foam armor for the first time!!!) and doing makeup at the haunted house, i've hardly had time for sleep... and I wouldn't have it any other way. 
This is one of my first clown practice runs. I tried doing 30 minutes or less, and initially I wasn't planning on posting. Having a few days of the crazed makeup chaos that is getting ready for house open under my belt, I have a new appreciation for what details you can and simply cannot complete in such a short time period, and kind of like the grunge this clown pulled off. Not everything you will create is perfect, but thats how we all learn! #clowns #hauntedhouse #halloweenmakeup #halloween2018
  • I think this barrel look could make a great clown character.... am I going over to the dark side and starting to like clowns?!?! Only time will tell, and there are still 20 days until Halloween! #nightmarebeforechristmas #halloweentown #lockshockandbarrel
  • "I say that we take a cannon, aim it at his door
And then knock three times
And when he answers
Sandy Claws will be no more!"
The props for Barrel were actually my favorite, even if they are a bit cheesy, and make this costume all the more fun. I'll have to keep an eye out for a skeleton costume this year... I would like to do this one again! #nightmarebeforechristmas #halloweentown #lockshockandbarrel
  • "We're his little henchmen and
We take our job with pride
We do our best to please him
And stay on his good side"
#Nightmarebeforechristmas #halloweentown #lockshockandbarrel
  • I am SO FREAKING PLEASED with this makeup... and I have no justification for why I love Barrel more than Shock... Could be the fun loving character or just that the colors popped more in these photos. Or maybe these clown-like looks are starting to grow on me.... #nightmarebeforechristmas #halloweentown #lockshockandbarrel
  • "Jack said, "We should work together"
Three of a kind
Birds of a feather
Now and forever
Wheeee!!!"
Those poor red eyes! Thats not fx eye-blood... it's what happens when you do too many makeups close together... this stuff can be hell on your skin! They didn't look this red in all of the photos, but they sure felt like it. I have since invested in a serious eye cream... its only one week into October! #redeyes #muaproblems #nightmarebeforechristmas #lockshockandbarrel
  • "Kidnap Mr. Sandy Claws
I wanna do it
Let's draw straws"
Maybe it is because this is my shortest wig or just the color palette, but I feel like my Shock makeup came across a bit like Beast Boy from Teen Titans... what do you think? #nightmarebeforechristmas #lockshockandbarrel #teentitans
  • "He'II be so pleased by our success
That he'll reward us too, I bet
Perhaps he'll make his special brew
Of snake and spider stew!"
One last shot of Lock... three guesses what the next one is, and the first two don't count ;) #nightmarebeforechristmas #lockshockandbarrel #halloweentown
  • "First, we're going to set some bait
Inside a nasty trap and wait
When he comes a-sniffing we will
Snap the trap and close the gate"
Ok, i couldn't wait to post this shot with the goofy masks I made 2 years ago... Im obsessed with this gorgeous wig from Webster Wigs. It's seriously my favorite. Speaking of the mask, Im excited to get these new pics posted on the blog, because the makeup and mask pics are super cheesy. It makes me proud to see how much I have improved in both makeup and prop-making in just a few years. #muapassion #lockshockandbarrel #nightmarebeforechristmas

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