Mad Like Alyce

What I sometimes wish people knew about Chronic Pain

It’s been years since Chronic Pain ruled my life. Since doctors appointments, prescription refills, medical tests and procedures, and fear about what was next demanded all of my mental capacity. I am sometimes amazed to find I have made it through nearly an entire day without my chronic pain crossing my mind… an achievement I would never have believed possible four years ago. But even with the progress I have made, I sometimes still wish people knew what a feat it was that I even show up for work on some days. That they would understand the accomplishment it is for me to get through an entire workday, then a workweek, even when I feel like I am taking those days just 5 minutes at a time.

See, I made a deal with myself years ago that I didn’t want to be the person always talking about pain. It had invaded my life and integrated itself with me, but it didn’t have to BECOME my life. Making that realization made a huge difference in the quality of life I led, and has helped me change my mindset and accomplish things I never thought would be possible for me again.

This being said… There are times I just want people to understand. There is an old joke I once heard about a woman in labor where her husband was offered the chance to be connected to a new machine that transfers a percentage of the pain of child labor to the father of the baby. He manages 10%, then 25%, then 50% without any pain. The doctors crank the machine up to 100% and both man and wife go through a completely pain free delivery. After the baby is born, the doctors are just astonished at his tolerance because most men never make it over 20%. When they arrive home with their newborn, the mailman is dead on the front step.

Sometimes, I’m kind of wish this pain machine was real. For the doctors that don’t believe. For the people who don’t understand. For those who judge because they can’t see. And often, it isn’t something you could ever see… rather, habits and behaviors born from it. For me, even without my pain being what it used to, I can still see the signs when I look for them. How I cannot sit still for more than a minute or two at most without shifting. Constant stretching. The stash of emergency medication I never leave home without, just in case one of my killer migraines show up. For the additional stash of OTC meds and pain patches I keep on hand to help pain from taking control. How I go to sleep every night with special pillows for my neck, back, and knee support, as well as a heating pad for my low back and an ice pack on my neck and shoulders.

As you know… no such pain transfer machine exists, nor will it likely ever exist. We have our families, trusted doctors, and friends who can see it, and that is usually enough. If you are struggling with pain, take pride in the accomplishments you make every day. No one else may realize what landmark you may have achieved… but you know. That is what matters.

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Hi! I'm Alyce.
Welcome to my journey towards living a happier and healthier life while living with PTSD and chronic pain... and never letting it keep me from my passion for Halloween, cooking, and way too many DIY projects... all at the same time!

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  • You would think that I would have done makeup on all of my family at this point, but sadly that is not the case, however, I was thrilled to have the opportunity to do my brother's makeup after the haunt had opened Saturday night! He managed to pull together an incredible maroon clown outfit, and I am really pleased how the makeup looks! I personally like the messier clowns, and it worked well to have brighter pink-ish hues toned down by smudges of black and watering down the paint overall. 
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  • My first ever zombie for Halloween was a shotgun bride, and although it was a real bridal gown with real shotgun damage, I just used 3 or 4 latex bullet wounds. It was fun, and a great introduction to using prosthetics, but it wasn't really accurate to what I would have had for damage with an actual shotgun wound. So years later, I made up for it by re-creating a more realistic wound of where the shoulder and partial face would have been torn up by the blast. Personally, this is my favorite zombie creation to date! #zombie #zombiemakeup #zombiebride #shotgunbride #zombiecrawl #woundmakeup
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  • OK you guys, this is where I love the internet. I created this zombie 2 years ago and had (kind of) forgotten about it until just this week when someone re-created it... and she is on the other side of the globe! Seriously, it made my my entire day/week/month, and reminds me why I love doing this. <3 <3 <3
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  • Its GO TIME PEOPLE! T-Minus 7 days to HALLOWEEEEEEEEEEN. Im running on fumes and caffeine, but it is 100% worth it. I love working at the haunted house, and am beyond thrilled about this coming weekend. I still have 2 costumes to finish and 2 zombies to do, plus some donut deliveries (a great fundraiser... friends scared of clowns? Send them donuts a-la-clowns). One more look at this first clown because I was obsessed with this wig from Rockstar wigs... I WILL find a way to use it again in the near future. #hauntlife #hauntedhouse #clowns #halloween2018
  • I had a request to recreate a clown mask as a makeup so it wouldn’t be as hot to wear in the house (swipe to see said mask), and it was quite the learning experience. I made this about a month ago when I was still trying to use the cream paints that the haunt had, though I’ve since decided to buy more of my own water paint to use on my actors. The base here was the basic white clown grease paint, and while I loved the coverage, it felt awful to wear, and it was incredibly difficult to add fine details with cream paint or shadows. So my first and last grease paint clown! 🤡 I still think it’s important to share our failures as well as the successes... this is still far better than what I might have created even just a year ago! #clowns #hauntedhouse #halloween
  • Hey Guys! I've been quiet on Insta so far this October, but its because IM SO BUSY and i'm pretty much in Halloween Heaven. Between finishing my first commissioned costume (its super simple, but I completed foam armor for the first time!!!) and doing makeup at the haunted house, i've hardly had time for sleep... and I wouldn't have it any other way. 
This is one of my first clown practice runs. I tried doing 30 minutes or less, and initially I wasn't planning on posting. Having a few days of the crazed makeup chaos that is getting ready for house open under my belt, I have a new appreciation for what details you can and simply cannot complete in such a short time period, and kind of like the grunge this clown pulled off. Not everything you will create is perfect, but thats how we all learn! #clowns #hauntedhouse #halloweenmakeup #halloween2018
  • I think this barrel look could make a great clown character.... am I going over to the dark side and starting to like clowns?!?! Only time will tell, and there are still 20 days until Halloween! #nightmarebeforechristmas #halloweentown #lockshockandbarrel

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