Mad Like Alyce

What Will Really Sink Your Ship?

Today in a one on one meeting with my former supervisor (now fellow account team member) he made a comment to me that shifted my perspective with a rush of incredible clarity. “You see things in black and white, but you need to know what will actually sink your ship.”

The purpose in this statement was that while I am excellent in identifying potential red flags with a development project, all issues are immediately classified as “Red Alert”. I can fully appreciate the irony in the fact that my PTSD driven tendency to always be watching for potential dangers and pitfalls makes me good at risk aversion in my job. That said, he had a wonderful point in that I really do waste a lot of energy on problems that crop up in life (and work) on issues that don’t end up even putting a dent in my metaphorical ship, much less a leak.

Ultimately, I think the most interesting part of this revelation was that for the first time, I saw attributes of my PTSD as something that has become part of me in a positive way. I’d spent almost two weeks feeling as if I was mourning the loss of the girl I was before, the girl who’s life changed at the hands of others and who would never be the same. Then a simple comment shifted my perspective. Sure, there are still ways that it interferes with my life in a very real way, but I was suddenly able to see PTSD as just a part of who I am, not what defines me. Instead of viewing it as something that I needed to cut out, eradicate, I have started to mold into something useful, to control it. To make it not only something I can live with, but a skill that makes me greater.

I have started to think, is my PTSD really something that sank my ship? Or am I stronger for learning how to control it?

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Hi! I'm Alyce.
Welcome to my journey towards living a happier and healthier life while living with PTSD and chronic pain... and never letting it keep me from my passion for Halloween, cooking, and way too many DIY projects... all at the same time!

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  • “I got an early parole, only here to say hi.” Can’t stop Shego feom@coming back atcha! Ok, serious question, who wants to see a glam Dr. Drakken? #kimpossible #shego #halloween
  • Got to work with my sister on a test makeup for her Halloween costume and we both did Shego makeup together! I know she has black hair, but my only black wig just wasn’t working. She did fantastic for her first time! #shego #kimpossible #sistermakeup
  • When you are so busy with #hauntlife you forget you have Instagram. I’m pulling together a video shoot for our haunt trailer video and an #sfxmakeup internship for aspiring artists. I sleep too, sometimes.
  • William Faulkner said to “it’s hard to kill your darlings” meaning it can be difficult to critique your own work, especially if you put a lot into it. Stephen King went on to say you should put your work away for six months to a year before editing so you can clearly evaluate. I’m really glad I looked back at this one. Even without the wig, I think it’s striking. #hauntmua #sfxmua #stevenkingismyhero #skullmakeup
  • I’m going through old pictures and ran across this one. I remember not really being happy with this look, and sure, the lines could have been cleaner, but I still really like this! I think we should always go back and look at work a year later... even if it really want good, it shows us just how far we have come in so little time. #skullmakeup #hauntmua #sfxmua #personalgrowth
  • I often do a look that I’m just not all that happy with afterwards, as is with this “halfway to Halloween” clown I created back in.... May? Looking at it now, I don’t know what it is exactly it was that I didn’t like... maybe I just needed a orange wig? I almost like a progress pic more than the finished product. What do you think?#clowns #clownmakeup
  • Throwback to my first actual clown makeup! The eye shapes were inspired by a few looks by @totalnightmaretravis, and i was incredibly excited about this wig! The Rhapsody Short by @rockstarwigs is probably the most fun wig to wear that I currently own. I only have red, but am heavily considering another color for my collection.
Happy National Clown Week! #justclowningaround #clowns #scaryclowns
  • Happy National Clown Week! A year ago, I wasn’t a big fan of clowns, but I practiced so many clown makeups that I eventually came to find them to be one of my favorites, and even created my own clown character. This is the first actual clown makeup I recreated based on @grave_digger_the_clown for last year’s haunt. Turned out a lot prettier than he is, no? 😉
#clownsofinstagram #hauntmua #clownmakeup #clowns
  • One last look at this (insightful? Revealing?) makeup! I actually really loved the eyes by themselves, and they took a good 2 hours themselves. A good challenge in trying to make a flat art of round objects translated on a curved surface! #eyeseeyou #eyeball #eyes #makeupartist #inspiredbyart
Facepaint is a recreation of art by @xsullo

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