Mad Like Alyce

What Will Really Sink Your Ship?

Today in a one on one meeting with my former supervisor (now fellow account team member) he made a comment to me that shifted my perspective with a rush of incredible clarity. “You see things in black and white, but you need to know what will actually sink your ship.”

The purpose in this statement was that while I am excellent in identifying potential red flags with a development project, all issues are immediately classified as “Red Alert”. I can fully appreciate the irony in the fact that my PTSD driven tendency to always be watching for potential dangers and pitfalls makes me good at risk aversion in my job. That said, he had a wonderful point in that I really do waste a lot of energy on problems that crop up in life (and work) on issues that don’t end up even putting a dent in my metaphorical ship, much less a leak.

Ultimately, I think the most interesting part of this revelation was that for the first time, I saw attributes of my PTSD as something that has become part of me in a positive way. I’d spent almost two weeks feeling as if I was mourning the loss of the girl I was before, the girl who’s life changed at the hands of others and who would never be the same. Then a simple comment shifted my perspective. Sure, there are still ways that it interferes with my life in a very real way, but I was suddenly able to see PTSD as just a part of who I am, not what defines me. Instead of viewing it as something that I needed to cut out, eradicate, I have started to mold into something useful, to control it. To make it not only something I can live with, but a skill that makes me greater.

I have started to think, is my PTSD really something that sank my ship? Or am I stronger for learning how to control it?

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Hi! I'm Alyce.
Welcome to my journey towards living a happier and healthier life while living with PTSD and chronic pain... and never letting it keep me from my passion for Halloween, cooking, and way too many DIY projects... all at the same time!

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  • One last look at this (insightful? Revealing?) makeup! I actually really loved the eyes by themselves, and they took a good 2 hours themselves. A good challenge in trying to make a flat art of round objects translated on a curved surface! #eyeseeyou #eyeball #eyes #makeupartist #inspiredbyart
Inspire by art by @xsullo
  • Eye see you! I also understand I’m not funny, it’s ok. 😂
This was actually a fun challenge, eyes are really complex and took nearly 2 hours to get them where I was happy. Of all of this, I’m really proud of the detail I was able to get in the irises of each eye, and my blocked eyebrow almost completely disappeared! This actually looks amazing compared to the first time I blocked them out. Yay for progress! #eyeseeyou #eyeball #horrormakeup #horrorart 
Inspired by art from @xsullo
  • I love finding inspiration in new places, and when @bearded_horror shared artwork by @xsullo a week or so ago, I knew I had to give it a try as a makeup! Seriously, such amazing art. I hope I did it justice! Check out their profile to see even more incredible works and compare to the original.
  • After this photoshoot im not sure how to go back to my plain black background... I mean if there isn’t ominous fog in the background, does it really even count?!?! #fogmachine #clownmakeup #scareactress #hauntlife #evietheclown
  • This is my level of excitement right now! The love I have gotten for Evie over the past few days have been amazing, thank you all so much! #clown #clownmakeup #clowns #hauntlife #scareactress
  • That’s not a Wiley grin, that’s me clamping my teeth together so I stopped chattering. This spring was BRUTAL in SD, and it was in the 30s when we shot this in an unheated parking garage. #clowningaround #clownmakeup #scareactor #scareactress #hauntlife
  • Evie is probably my favorite full-costume character I’ve created to date. It’s so fun to think a practice look I made for haunt last year will be a fully fledged character come haunt season next year! Also, I NEED these light bars @jibclimmer used in this shoot. If anyone has a few hundred dollars to donate to the cause just let me know. 😉 #clown #clownmakeup #hauntedhouse #hauntlife #makeupartist
  • If only @grave_digger_the_clown would learn to share, Evie wouldn’t have to steal his shovel! #justclowningaround #clown #clownmakeup #hauntlife photography credit goes to the incredibly talented @jibclimmer
  • Hey guys! It’s been a hell of last few months, but trust me, I’ve been busy! I’d like to introduce my newest character, Evie the Clown! Thanks so much to @jibclimmer for these incredible photos... more to come very shortly. #clown #clownmakeup #hauntlife

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